to calm down...

I don't know why, but I'm gonna sleep in office tonight. Yeah Yeah~~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have pride...

 

 

 

Mr. JL, who is the former CSPC manufactory dept. director, has left us for 2 months. However, I hardly find a time to write something for remembering him. He is indeed a nice old man from France. Though not too much contact with him, I can still feel that I'm one of his good friend in CSPC. I don't speak Franch, otherwise he may share more joy with me. As a supporter to him, we were always having good time with chatting. He loves travelling. During the past 5 years, he has been to a lot of places in China. I'm always dreamming to have some time and some money to take a look around this world. But all those seems too far away now, I should work for my future at this moment, as they always tell me to.

 

Working too late into night everyday I am. But never should I stop recording my life. I know I can't control everything perfect, at least, I'm trying.

 

C'est la vie.......

 

 

Oh, life sucks!!!

 

Jesus, how can you drag me down like this??!!!

 

Anxious, so so much I feel recently.......

 

I did a little review on my last year, and I don't think I made progress on my English.

 

Yes, time to need some effort on my vocabulary,

 

and most important, no more Singaporean Engliah.

 

But how about......whatever......go to hell!!!!!

 

I should fight for my own life, not anyone else...

 

I need some change, and I mean that.

 

I really do...

Today I suddenly realize that I can not read most symbols on the keyboard in English. It is quite ridiculous that an IT supporter can't describe something they use everyday. Therefore I spend sometime to collect the tips for everyone like me as a reminder. come and learn with me la....

 

'exclam'＝'!'
'at'＝'@'
'numbersign'＝'#'
'dollar'＝'$'
'percent'＝'％'
'caret'＝'^'
'ampersand'＝'&'
'asterisk'＝'*'
'parenleft'＝'('
'parenright'＝')'
'minus'＝'-'
'underscore'＝'_'
'equal'＝'='
'plus'＝'+'
'bracketleft'＝'['
'braceleft'＝'{'
'bracketright'＝']'
'braceright'＝'}'
'semicolon'＝';'
'colon'＝':'
'quote'＝'''
'doublequote'＝'"'
'backquote'＝'''
'tilde'＝'~'
'backslash'＝'\'
'bar'＝'|'
'comma'＝','
'less'＝'<'
'period'＝'.'
'greater'＝'>'
'slash'＝'/'
'question'＝'?'
'space'＝' '

today deserves to be remembered. though not surprised, i can still feel very gratified that i can sign my second contract. this contract can guarantee that i will not lose my job until "911" of 2009 except i do something really stupid

 

to celebrate this normal but joyful day, i decide to cook myself a spaghetti with cheese and garlic, and of course, a delicious beefsteak

 

what a wonderful world........

Latin people are really enthusiastic at music. They put all their passion and talent to make the most beautiful songs in this world. They are people truly love music more than anyone in the world. Those people can always express their feeling with touching voice.

 

Tonight, I was moved by this great Latin singer, Pablo Montero. Hey friends, please share me few minutes, put your stuff away, join me to listen......

 

 

El eco de tu adios, se escucha todavía
Mi vida sin tu amor, parece una mentira
No se si fue un error, las cosas asi son
Pero es muy tarde ya, hace tiempo que entregue mi corazon

 

Hay otra en tu lugar, perdoname mi amor
Ya no podia seguir llorando por tu adios
Hay otra en tu lugar, no se si es lo mejor
Pero me hace sentir muy cerquita de dios

 

Hay otra aquí en mi vida,
Pero tu te llevaste.... Mi amor

 

Hay otra en tu lugar, tu me dejaste solo
Queriendote olvidar, casi me vuelvo loco
No se si fue un error, las cosas asi son
Pero es muy tarde ya, hace tiempo que entregue mi corazon

 

Hay otra en tu lugar, perdoname mi amor
Ya no podia seguir llorando por tu adios
Hay otra en tu lugar, no se si es lo mejor
Pero me hace sentir muy cerquita de dios

 

Hay otra aquí en mi vida,
Pero tu te llevaste.... Mi amor

 

Grande fue la herida, y pude continuar
No es facil olvidar un gran amor
Tu recuerdo va conmigo, aqui en mi corazon
Espero un dia mas, igual

 

Hay otra en tu lugar, perdoname mi amor
Ya no podia seguir llorando por tu adios
Hay otra en tu lugar, no se si es lo mejor
Pero me hace sentir muy cerquita de dios

 

Hay otra aquí en mi vida,
Pero tu te llevaste.... Mi amor

 

you can also find the MV here,

i don't know what is passion exactly, because i'm, kind of, tired of doing my job. sometime i even can delay the process with purpose. but sadly i still can not find out what is that purpose. maybe just too lazy to keep following the those pieces of shit......or a huge excuse......

 

as a matter of fact, i've already spent lots of the energy and time to contribute to that chaos without any benefit or success to myself....why i should keep doing this?

 

from the bottom of my heart, i truly believe everything will finally pass through, and i'm gonna have a shining future...

 

hey, long time no see, anybody miss me?

 

i feel really down today, not only because i found someone is such an idiot, but also the job is quite boring.

 

i've already dedicated all my extra lunch time and sleeping time to the stupid work, what the fucking else you still want?

 

there's always no way to communicate with fools, i'm pretty convinced with the point....

 

i could be a nut today, but believe me, i will stand up soon

Sometimes i can feel, the world is quite big. There will always be so much advanced technologies, which may far beyond our vision.

 

Standing on a little corner of this iceberg, the only thing to do is to keep learning with an open mind. Things just happened, you haven't tried means you never know. So, like Trump told me, never ever give up.

 

Keep moving... 

 What i'm doing? hah...

 

Thank God I can finally access my space at the end day of 2006. Seems that I caught a cold tonight after I made a fully clean-up of my house. But whatever la, I just wake up at this moment without any purpose.

 

The horrible earthquake happened in Taiwan recently really made this world a mess. The stronger our technology becomes, the weaker human being will be. Sure, such kind of natural disaster is totally out of our control. Maybe there's nothing we could do but pray to our Lord.

 

A sudden thought came to my mind yesterday night. Yes, it was my last working day in 2006 yesterday. the next time I go to work will be in 2007. But it was too busy that I forgot those things. I really wanna express my great appreciation to everything, to my colleagues, to my friends and to my family. So so much lucky I feel that I can work in CSPC, know lots of nice colleagues and the most important have lots of fantastic friends who are always supporting me......I will cherish this great opportunity and keep making myself even more sparkling than ever before. I wanna share my hope and say thank you from the bottom of heart to those guys who brought some shininess into my darkness period during the beginning of my working days, to let me come through the difficulties, to make me happy....

 

'Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen...'

 

Well, wish you guys all the best in 2007.... 

 

Everything is ruined

 

So so much I hate myself...

Some items must be done tonight, no more delay la ='''=

 

1. 2006 Performance Review. (Actually, it should be first 3 months working plan review la~)

 

2. 2007 working goal setting.

 

3. 2007 IT on-boarding training material update for CSPC new staff.

 

4. Make some constructive suggestion as CST focal point for new CSPC intranet going-live.

 

5. Analyse CSPC anti-virus system and draft a proposal for 2007 AV software purchase plan.

 

6. Hand write a letter to JJ Xiao.

 

Well, 4 hours seems enough la.... T_T

People often says--no pain, no gain.

 

But, how about pain without gain?

 

Obviously,

 

Smart is much more important than hard working......

After the year 2006 review with XB and Ben, I suddenly feel the sun is shining again wa~~~

 

To me, 2006 is over. And now I'm getting start with the 2007 goal setting. Right, I always enjoy planning the future, and I'm also used to the unfinish of my plan.

 

Yap, it sounds absolutely ridiculous. But, everyone knows, a plan is better than nothing la.....I think in most case I was way to much optimistic to myself so there's nothing really worth my great effort.

 

RB is no longer here. I thought I could put all my attention back to my work. But it's totally wrong, life's getting even more boring than before. What should I do? Indeed, where can I submit a change request just like that easy in the CC system?

 

Maybe, life is just so boring and dull.........ennnnnn.......It really is.